fears….. of any one… of any age….any where

My fear, I shall fail

No matter how much i try to sail

My fear, i might lose

So many ways, difficult to choose

My fear, i shall fall

while intending to always stand tall

My fear, i may tumble

as many think i’m not that humble

My fear, i may cease to laugh

while always trying to make others laugh

My fear, i may stop crying

with the prospect that i’m always trying

My fear, i may not feel;

while unknown wounds i try to heal

My fear, i might become heartless

while i praise everybody with a God bless

My fear, i may stop talking

seeing that its hurts with my talking

My fear i might noot go out with anybody

 as i seem to argue and disagree with everybody

My fear, i might not sing

as i am too lazy fot the emotions that i’m supposed to bring

My fear, i may not dance

 or some might say its just her another show-off chance

My fear i might not pray

for it is believe that in front of some i make my hay

my fear, i might not love

for m i’m often told i dont know how to love

My fear, i might not speak

for i screw up things whenever i speak

My fear i’ll be left alone

For all the bad that i have supposedlly sown

My fea, i”ll be deserted

for all  the false beliefs that i have asserted

My fear, I may not live

while i struggle to merely exist and never reprieve

My fear, i’ll be misunderstood

For I’m always criticised for my changing moods

My fear, I’ll be misled

For i fail to differentiate between the good and the bad

My greatest fear, i am frightened of every single thing

That i fear if if strength and courage to my heart i can ever bring!!!!!

some oldies….

Perfection

Perfection is the purity of heart
Which makes impurity apart
It is the purity of mind
Which makes a person so kind
It is the purity of body
With no chance of a folly
It is the purity of skill
Which always gives us a will
It is the purity of ambition
Which makes possible every mission
It is the purity of ability
Which cultivates a sense of nobility
Perfection is only a creation
Which is required to complete every relation

Poem on urbanization

For comforts to be satisfied
Man made a civilization
For the growth of urban areas
Man made urbanization
We claim to live in urban areas
But do not fulfill the criteria
Of housing, wetlands, forests and space
We proud to be urbanized
But are we organized
To solve problems which remain immobilized?
We crave for a good life
Why we never ever strive
To prosper, grow, think and thrive?

Art

Art is magic
Which describes feelings – happy or tragic
No wonder it is so creative

Art is a joy
Which dwells in a particular girl or boy
Thus, selective of an innovative mind

Art is not what we draw, dance or sing
It is what our heart, mind and soul bring
From the deepest of our feelings to hand, body and throat

Pain

Pain is no longer pain when it is past
But sometimes it does not heal fast
For it is deep and hurting
It makes the lips curling
The pain giver is as innocent as we are
Though we think he is not what we think is
And keep him behind a dark black and lonely bar
The pain should be tried to heal
Or it may get converted into a seal
Which packs the heart so tightly
Which only a sharp and loved person could feel

Life

Life is full of joys and sorrows
No matter which simplest solutions you borrow
It is never completely lived
As half of the life is believed
To be the gift of God
Life is of course an ice cream
Which would one day surely melt
And today I think the day has come
When as dead I have ever felt
In a few days my soul will be vanish’d from my body
Nowhere will it be seen
Nor this is the worst that could have ever been

Savior

Water, a powerful element
Destructive or constructive
Never shall thou challenge
It changes thy life in a moment
It is the source of being
Which mankind happily pollutes
Such devilish acts are
Not worth a hundred salutes
Come, come, lets do something
To change the minds of mortals
Or it will be too late to save
And the globe will be left with nothing

pain.. the best companion..

BE SURE!!!
theres one thing that will never abandon you..never leave you…never betray you…never ditch you…
its pain.. the best companioin…a loner can have… a lonely can have.. n an alone can have….
the best friend of those who sleep in the shadows of broad daylight n are awake in the moonlight of long never ending nights…..
a guide for those seeking help..n even for those who seemingly don’t seek anything…
pain..it walks with you,talks with you, runs with , stops with you, sleeps with you, gets up with you, sits with you, smiles with you, laughs with you, cries with you , gets angry with you, loves you, hates you, strangles you, troubles you, plays with you, falls with you,gets ill with you, becomes happy with you , sad with you…. lives with you.. forever n forever….
no doctor…no physician… no cardiologist,… no yogi… no one NOT EVEN GOD….can take away the pain from you… though it may be soothed on temporary basis.. but not permanently…
its eternal n everlasting…
it is born with us.. grows with us…lives with n also dies with us…
when each of us know that we cant escape pain … then why do v run try to make even an attempt to run away???? why do we hide behind our own shadows when we know that
pain is our shadow…
y do we baptize ourselves when we know pain cant be washed away….
turning on the lights casts away shadows but pain isn’t something that can be cast away???
why do we consider that pain is a punishment for our sins and not a reward for our deeds???
y do we run away from our own decisions fearing pain when in our fear itself is present ..pain!!
y do consequences of what we do hurt more then the causes for which we do things????>..
God gives us pain so that we know the difference between pain and happiness.. then why do we crave only for happiness when we are soo unaware of the pain that resides in our soul intact .. untouched.. unheard..unfelt..unseen…
To remove a thorn that hurt in our feet we make use of another thorn… when these two come together .. it pains like …reallly much.. but then the relief that follows cannot be compared to the pain we went through…
same way to get out of life’s pain.. you need a bigger n stronger .. n more painful pain.. that slaps you on the face n tells you.. that reality is painful n you cant go away from me… you can only recognize me.. and learn to live with me.. so that none of us are unfair on the other….
pain is physical mental.. psychological.. or wadeva .. but pain is pain… no matter how much you try to avoid it … it finds you..rapes you.. tears your soul apart.. only to help you mend it again…
want to lessen your pain??>.. get used to pain… n kill it with a greater pain…
fighting is what we have learnt and soo shall be.. after all jesus ….had to bear soo much pain.. not because he was sinful.. because .. he was aware of the power of pain… that can possess us .. or that can be possessed by us… let not pain decide what we do.. what we want to do.. let us decide .. how much.. pain we want to suffer from ..

sounds too impossible..too easy to write….
but u know what…we all know its true.. we all know….that somewhere..sometime we all.. face this debate of pain and suffering..
but not all suffering is bad and painful.. while all bad and painful things are sufferings………

k now i am damn confused too.. so i should stop!!!>…..pain is knocking at the door!!!;););)

some more random thoughts…..

Dreams remain dreams if we do not dream

Dreams come true if we dare to dream

Goals are achieved if we set a goal

Life is full of sorrows if we do not live

Life is full of joys if we dare to live

Life is full of happiness if we dare to be happy

Life becomes dark if we do not light a candle

Life becomes bright if we dare to light a candle

Commitment becomes a duty if we do not commit

Commitment becomes a responsibility if we dare to commit

Friendship becomes painful if we do not believe

Friendship becomes painless if we dare to believe

Belief becomes blind if we close our eyes

Belief becomes wider if we dare to see everything

Faith becomes a misinterpretation if we do not understand

Faith becomes a correct interpretation if we dare to understand

Relief becomes a poison if we hardly work

Relief becomes a cure if regularly work

Life becomes terrible if we do not smile

Life becomes beautiful if we dare to smile

Relationships become lame if we are anxious

Relationships become steady if we dare to be calm

Defence become weak if we do not fight

Defence becomes strong if we dare to fight

Trips become dangerous if we are not adventurous

Trips become interesting if we dare to be adventurous

Battles are lost if we do not take a risk

Battles are won if we dare to take a risk

Life becomes a bane if we do not love

Life becomes a boon if we dare to love

Emotions become irresistible if we do not control

Emotions become resistible if we dare to control

Pain increases if we are pessimistic

Pain decreases if we dare to be optimistic

Life becomes a hell if we do not adjust

Life becomes a heaven if we dare to adjust

Art becomes a difficulty if we are not creative

Art becomes easy if we dare to me creative

Codes are codes if we do not decipher

Codes become meanings if we dare to decipher

Ideas disappear if we do not opine

Ideas appear if we dare to opine

Change is bad if we do not accept

Change is good if we dare to accept

Ambitions lead to nowhere if we do not work for it

Ambition leads to everywhere if we dare to work for it

Courage is false if we fear to prove it

Courage is true if we dare to prove it

Fear kills if we do not overcome it

Fear has no effect if we dare to overcome it

Possible becomes impossible if we do not try

Impossible becomes possible if we dare to try

Errors become crime if we do not correct

Errors are negligible /become discoveries if we dare to correct

Mistakes become unbearable if we do not forgive

Mistakes become a lesson if we dare to forgive

Patience becomes a problem if we are impatient

Patience becomes a solution if we dare to patient

Curiosity is complicated if we are not curious

Curiosity is easy if we dare to be curious

War is a sin if we are selfish

War is a deed if we dare to be selfless

Peace is harmful if we are never quiet

Peace is grateful if we dare to be quiet

Silence is a slow poison if we are wrong

Silence is a quick medicine if we dare to be right

Life becomes meaningless if we do not dream

Life becomes meaningful if we dare to dream

Reality feels like thorns if we are unreal

Reality feels like flowers if we dare to be real

Success leads to adversity if we do not take an effort

Success leads to prosperity if we dare to take an effort

Failure discourages if we do not succeed

Failure encourages if we dare to succeed

Friends become devils if our choices are wrong

Friends become angels if we dare to make the right choices

Ability is a shame if we do not use it

Ability is an honor if we dare to use it

Life is absent if we do not flourish

Life is present if we dare to flourish

Good becomes bad if we do not face it

Bad becomes good if we dare to face it
a ‘yes’ becomes a ‘no’ if we do not decide

A ‘no’ becomes a ‘yes’ if we dare to decide

Hope turns to despair if we do not hope

Hope brings a ray of light if we dare to hope

Sky seems dull if we do not look at it

Sky seems a cluster of stars if we dare to look at it

Promises are broken if we do not follow

Promises are fulfilled if we dare to follow
A path is too long if we do not walk

A path is too short if we dare to walk

Life is incomplete if do not give

Life is complete if we dare to give

Mysteries remain mysteries if we do not explore

Mysteries unfold if we dare to explore

Opinions remain opinions if we do not speak

Opinions are considered if we dare to speak

Knowledge curses if we do not learn

Knowledge blesses if we dare to learn

…all the people i care for…

In the wake of events that took place

I mourn the loss of someone special

For whom I really cared

It took me lot of pain to do something I shouldn’t have

But I had to for the well being of that someone special

I took the thorns and gave the loved one all the flowers

I took all the pains and sorrows

So that it may live in joy and happiness

But, o lord, what situation is this

Where I can neither say nor express myself but remain silent

For I must

To protect someone who deserves to be happy

And for that silence is good even if it increases my pain

It is good for it decreases someone’s pain

May I be forgiven for what I have done

May the divine light give us all the power

To understand who we are

And what purpose we serve on this earth

My soul…

My Soul

In the heart of a lake

For a good heaven’s sake

The caption of a mermaid

Always keeps me awake

She was true and worthy

For she never thought dully

For I remember her blessing

Which was as much wealthy

No, no she is not the one

You think is a fun

But it is someone

Whom everyone believes as Omen.

lookin at life through my eyes…..

With great difficulty we realize the importance of life, our life and the life of the people close to us and still if we do not respect it and give up then what’s the point of knowing what it is to live and not living. Happiness does not come our way we have to find happiness from around us, nor does sadness come our way it is we who choose the sadness for ourselves and nor anybody else. Decisions may be right or wrong but what is right is that we brave the problem of making a decision and what is wrong is if we do not even make an effort to decide what is good or bad for us and accept everything closing our eyes right when the light is just two steps ahead. When we complain it doesn’t mean that we are weak or we do not know how to go about the obstacles we face but it simply means that we want an answer to everything that happens that’s all. Not always do we get our answers, do we?? Because our answers always lie in the questions we ask, the only difference it makes is whether we get it ourselves or leave it on someone else to answer what it is we already know but think that we do not know. Times change, circumstances change but people remain the same what changes is the vision of looking at things, our perspectives our level of thinking but what we are from inside, our introspect remains the same, our identity is intact only we have to search for it with passion. The many problems I have faced in just fifteen years of my life makes me think even more that there a whole long life before me where each day is going to be different day, a different sunshine, a different night, a different aspiration, a different dream altogether.

every aspect of our day to day to activities gives a new dimension to our life.. a new purpose.. a feeling of.. yes this is right.. this is wrong…

when i think of my problems.. or when i am actually in sum kind of fix…not only me.. but many of us think that .. God is punishing us.. He doesnt exist…He doesnt love us.. He always makes us suffer…

but it is not really so….He exists.. He loves….. He rewards.. and sometimes He does punish…

what really decides the existence or non-existence of God is our belief…our faith… our heart…

we always have an option to choose, whether we want to believe or not…

I am writing below a kind of belief i experienced for God… at a point of my life..

I feel that I always have a way out of things just that I take too long to find it and get done with it. Now I know that I am not going to be alone for long. About time when someone will hold my hand and guide me through or be with me. I just need to have faith and be positive that someone will surely come to my rescue. I just need to pull out my hand and that’s it. Now I know that my god will never leave anyone alone for long or suffering for long. Not even me. God loves me and I know that and that’s precisely the reason why he keeps on testing me again and again to see how much strength I have to hold on to keep on going and how much I can endure pain. But I am also his daughter he know s it and the more harder he is on me the more harder way I answer back his challenges and that’s why he loves playing games with me because he wants to see how many times I can win or lose and how many times do I have the grit to lose and still think of winning or win and yet accept failure as it comes by. My next test is the results for the boards which has still time to go. And you know what we are really going to watch out of what y god does this time. Keeps his hand on my head or gives me yet another tougher fight but he knows I’ll go to any ends to prove my self and I will prove my self every time he puts me into the circle of difficulties and hardships. “

Rage Control

My Anger

Anger, Anger, Anger

Why, that’s the problem,

With me and people like me.

I can’t control it,
I can’t stop it,

But I can work on it,

I know it, I know it!

But, how? I wonder

With what? I wonder

Oh, it’s a terrible blunder!

I need patience and strength

Difficult not impossible

Should work on a good length

It has given me pain

And is fidgeting with my brain

So let it pour out

Like the clear, silent but sweet rain!

juzz some unbidden thoughts…

-we have been alert and awake throughout the night, there is still some time to go before sun rise

There are still some half –done, unfinished dreams that didn’t end

At least once, in our siesta let those dreams be accomplished.

We have been working and slogging day and night. We are tired, we want to doze off. There is still time for the sun to rise meaning there is still some time for are dream world to end and we be thrown back to reality which is a completely different world altogether. So at any rate let us seize the opportunity of seeing our dreams accomplished the way we want them to be. Let all those small tiny millions of dreams resurface from the corner of our minds to the vision of our eyes. Let us utilize this chance to seek what we want the most in our dreams which is something that no one can take away from us.

IN search Of Happiness………

In Search of Happiness………

 

 

 

            Happiness is a comprehensive term yet very perplexing. It is a unique feeling conferred upon humans that has to be experienced, felt to be understood. Let’s take an example of a toddler and a grown up. Both are mortals aren’t

       they? But what makes a child more superior and powerful than a mature human???? The nous of happiness. For a child, any time is the time to celebrate given that he gets what he wants and doesn’t matter if it’s a toy, a lolly,

              a balloon or whatever; whereas an adult will go to achieve the greater worldly ambitions and all the riches of the world; which for him spell happiness. But what is forgotten is that, happiness depends upon ourselves.   

           I contradict with the phrase ‘in search of happiness’ because all of us are under the illusion that happiness is materialistic and money oriented, something that most huntsmen seek- it’s somewhat like a parameter of life.

     Happiness is one of the chief ingredients required to complete the recipe of life. Happiness does not come our way nor are we predestined with sadness, it is we who choose from one of these. The pursuit to happiness is a

            most   ridicule phrase; if you pursue happiness you will never find it. Happiness is a magical sensation that is felt through inner contentment and bliss. I’ll put it in this way; the richest man on the earth may not be the happiest

    of all. Happiness is that one emotion that a father experiences when his son holds his finger for the first time and tries to walk. True, beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. There really isn’t any cosmetic for beauty like happiness.

     Right now, we are all trying to cope up with the same dilemma- trying to be happy. It is thereby important that, we endeavour the task of exploring

our inner self from the depths of the regular hustle and bustle and then can

we say that our quest is “A Search for Happiness……………..”.